I had a big disagreement with a work colleague today. I was shocked that she had the attitude that some kids are not capable of reaching a certain target. She thought I was naive for thinking the opposite. We (or at least I) agreed to disagree, but the whole conversation got me thinking about a great many things – negative thinking, public speaking and what I’m passionate about.
If I was going to change one thing about myself it would be my persistence in running myself down. As much of a contradiction as it sounds, I’m really good at it. Today, for example, my partner told me about a conversation he’d had with his mate about me. His mate had said I was good looking, intelligent, a ‘good catch,’ and my first thoughts about that were ‘wow, I must be getting good at pretending.’ I missed a few days’ posts this week, it’s been a tiring week and I’ve found it hard to focus, and I feel guilty about it.
I read somewhere that if you do something for 30 days it becomes a habit. I wonder, if you do something for a lifetime is that a personality trait? I think being hard on myself is more than a habit and it’s going to take a lot longer than 30 days of thinking four positive thoughts for every negative one. Thinking negatively is so much part of me it comes before I think about it (if that makes any sense). I suppose the upside to this is that I can think positively about the situation afterwards. It’s okay I didn’t post for a couple of days. I didn’t cause any pain, nobody died because I didn’t post. If other men think I’m a good catch, then maybe I am.
Maybe my next 30-day challenge should be to get out of the negative self-talk habit. That means 30 days of replacing put-downs with push-ups. Well, at least it will be good for my upper body strength 🙂